As we start to close out this Mercury retrograde cycle, and enter that little storm as the planet goes seemingly direct, I look over my notes and I am reminded of a few things. I felt like this was best for a reading, as a good reading should be a magickal-spiritual reflection for us.
And so, during this last cycle of retrograde I learned that it was better for me to stop and pause, say nothing, observe myself and observe others, before choosing to act. This often saved me from hard reaction and allowed me to think and feel, before saying or doing, if I acted at all. Emotional situations seemed to run high this trip of mercury through the underworld and a lot of emotional spaces are transient, they inform us or refer back to something else, and they pass. Whatever was hot is suddenly not so hot, any longer. Pausing helped me to cultivate a little self-reflection and ask about my own motivation, emotional content, and action.
This energy seemed to play out on the national dialogue, in the case of two divisive situations. There’s the same application, as above, below. In the courtroom of social opinion it seems like we’ve become fixed on the quickest to respond with the loudest voices being the "correct voices." And clearly, and this should have been evident as generationally this is a human problem, but this is not always the truth. This cycle taught me patience, and nuance. It revealed to me how locked in a level of our consciousness is on quick judgments and the insistence to be right, for the sake of being right about what we believe.
This Mercury retrograde taught me a lot about my personal dialogue with the world, or some would say, “the universe,“ and the group mind. It gave me the opportunity to see the parts of that dialogue that were my projection, and see through those said projections and create an opportunity to actually see and hear someone without all of my internal lingo getting in the way by practicing self reflection and personal inquiry, first.
This last month also taught me a lot about aftermath. That is, I got to see a lot of things land on people who consider themselves part of “community,“ but weren’t acting like a very good person in that community. As if to say I have enough credibility and so I can act as I please with no repercussion, but that is exactly the thing we're crying out against in society, and regardless of our situation, background privilege, or lack thereof, positioning ourselves in a place of power to act like the said power we are calling out, is the same offense!
It’s not to be a pro polite-culture, nor is it to bypass anything that’s happening to any one, but if you take the above points into consideration and the results of your actions, we truly have the definition of karma. That is those leaded and unconscious things inside us that are fixed points we are trying to resolve within our own soul/self and materializing in the form of blessings or banes in our life.
"The matter can be put in another way. The pleasures and frustrations, the happiness and suffering experienced by each individual are the inevitable fruits of beneficial and evil actions he has perpetrated, thus adding to his store. " -- His Holiness the Dalai Lama
This Mercury retrograde cycle revealed to me where I am at in my growing process and where others are at in their growing process. I learned as it came to close to know and accept what I was cultivating, especially those things in the unconscious dialogue; which I think is the most powerful voice in the universal dialogue.
I learned about how I communicate.
I’m a very casual teacher. I hold friendly spaces. And I think that often people think that this means I am less discipline that I actually am. But I think it’s because all of the discipline that I can be more relaxed in my practice. I don’t run around pointing fingers in my classes. I like to try and call things out gently In broader examples, and seek to ask specific questions. I hold the space that allows for other people to own what those words may be reflecting, or with in the context of healing or circle. I might deliver things in story, to allow for you or anyone I am treating to digest it without feeling accusation. For me, that is one of the pieces I can use to create safe space.
I caught the blessing of how others perceive me.
"Tho it is true that some things are always true, sometimes something is especially true." -- Caroline Casey, Visionary Activist Show
Mercury taught me to hold a level of clarity and transparency in my spaces. To smile and accept. And correct gently, where necessary. Somethings are universally true. We are all learning from each other, that is true. And, we enter agreements where we understand that we consciously agree who we are together in magickal, therapeutic, and healing spaces. We accept that what is universally true we all learn from each other, coexists with the agreement that someone knows more about a thing than we do and we're here to learn or receive from them. When we are together and you hire me for the healer, then you seat yourself as the recipient.
Whether we are lovers, or friends, students and teachers, parents and children, or associates for a moment or a lifetime, it is about communication and agreement. It is about knowing, deepening trust, acceptance and understanding.
I sat myself where I am student, before my teacher. I sat myself where I am teacher, before my student, those were agreements, and they were clarified. With clarification the dialogue and energy runs brighter, truer.
“But the final price of freedom is the willingness to face that most frightening of all beings, one’s own self. Starlight vision, the “other way of knowing,” is the mode of perception of the unconscious, rather than the conscious mind. The depths of our own beings are not all sunlit; to see clearly, we must be willing to dive into the dark, inner abyss and acknowledge the creatures we may find there. For, as Jungian analyst M. Esther Harding explains in Woman’s Mysteries, “These subjective factors … are potent psychical entities, they belong to the totality of our being, they cannot be destroyed. So long as they are unrecognized outcasts from our conscious life, they will come between us and all the objects we view, and our whole world will be either distorted or illuminated.” ― Starhawk, The Spiral Dance: A Rebirth of the Ancient Religions of the Great Goddess
This Mercury retrograde cycle taught me discernment in communication, which is a large part of my lesson this last 12 months and it leaned into something that gets under my skin, spiritual assumption.
Spiritual Assumption is a place where we can sit when we're feeling connected to our source energies that speaks without permission someone else's truth or suffering, assumes spiritual authority or insight, and does not necessarily acknowledge the spiritual light in others; or if it does posits the speaker as greater than, and the other, lesser.
I want us all to hold that for a second because we each have great power in the things we may believe we have insight into, especially for others, and understand that this great power requires equal or greater gentleness. If you can imagine where you are most vulnerable or tender, then recall when someone called out something, and how that made you feel. Remember how much they didn't see when that person assumed their position in your life, or spoke from a place that reduced you or what was happening?
This kind of assumption is an ignorance, or at the very least a carelessness, in itself. It assumes that we have a knowingness and a one-uppance, on someone. It assumes, and that should be enough, because we have enough assumption of others. It's unavoidable, we carry biases, and I feel as a magickal being in spiritual spaces I have the opportunity to do better at it, to represent what that is in a right-action example.
I'm understanding how to get through my own spiritual assumptions by clarifying my client and student relationships, when we are in those spaces together, how we sit, what we done, and how we come together. I'm understanding through introspective pursuits and life-reviews, de-escalating and reflection how to communicate better on all levels!
This is why we create agreements in spiritual spaces, cast circles, and act intentionally with each other and in our universal dialogue with Spirit and spirits. Specificity and clarity matter. Questions and permission, matters. Respecting space and agreements matter, both in the circle, and about.
This cycle taught me that when I am feeling a sense of greater towards others, when I am feeling that, it’s for me to dilate my inner eye and open my heart a little more to what I’m really engaging. My teacher in those situations is myself and that reflection that is brought up is the lesson.
There was a lot to digest this time around. I thought ultimately what it is that stirs into my cauldron of becoming, to transform me, to further resolve what I am learning and further clarify my path. And that eventually shows up in teaching, and in holding safe space. That only happens when I resolve the issue within myself.
The Cauldron, for me, represents spirit. It is connected to all worlds and takes in, transforms. It is a powerful tool at any time, and for now. It is the cauldron of change, the place where things break-down and become something new. Retrogrades provide an easy time to focus in on a specific piece that become evident under that planets time and influence in our daily lives.
You may not have engaged this time with any particular attention to the spirit of Mercury. That's totally okay, I feel that these words still translate. If you had, maybe these lean a little more into your experience, and speak to the development of our voices as expressive instruments of who we are and who we are becoming, but also to our ears inner and outer, to listen to ourselves so that we can improve our voice and message.
Be "positive" without bypassing. Be just without becoming tyranny. Be true without becoming oppressive. Be loving, listen, and recognize we are all learning. Be spiritual and vote, and create social change, and say something. These things are not at odds, we are just taught that they are. Speak as a voice of power and inspiration, and leave the hellfire and damnation behind, because even if you are right, burning others for it is not going to make this place any better, it's just going to feed the endless cycle by perpetuating the violence at the root of those thoughts.
I hope the cycle treated you kindly. And illuminated where you are learning and growing. I hope it was easy and that there were no broken electronics or bad contracts, I hope it resolves disputes and clarified new ways of communication for you. That opened up near to be tender and careful and precise with our words and actions. That we are to be on the path that is leading us into more conscious decision making and living.
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